I am a troublemaker.
Sometimes I get so overwhelmed. By homework, friends, internet, distractions, cats, homework and more homework. I don’t know where to start or what to finish. And I end up in this place where I don’t want to do anything.
I am there right now.
Skipping on school and just moping about. Looking out the window like those women in music videos. With some luck a raindrop drizzles down the glass, reflecting the ever grey sky.
I sigh and say to myself: ‘Faye, today you’re going to do it. You’re going to get up and start digging in that mountain called homework’. I put on my best smile and make some tea. As I return to my desk I get distracted by the pretty sparkles in my nailpolish…oops.
Sometimes I wish I had more perserverance but alas. It is not something you can wish for. I just need to remember that it’s not all that bad. I know I can do alot when I have to, and that there are a lot of nice things to come. If all goes well I get to move out in about a month, not to mention it’s nearly the end of the year. With some luck we’ll have snow and ice and I can give iceskating a try. I got friends and family, and a lovely home filled with fluffy cats.
I guess I just need to get organized. Having ADHD it’s not easy. But hey! If it’s easy, it’s not worth doing (or something like that). When I get my act together, I will definitely write about it. If I can overcome stress and homework like things, anyone can.
Before I bid you farewell, my cat Beatrijs (Beatrice, yep, named after the medieval dutch prostitute) has a message:
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Have nice day!
PS: speaking of troublemakers, watch this MV with the ever-sexy Hyuna in it; a whole different kind of troublemaker.
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